Everybody is a genius. But, if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will spend its whole life believing that it is stupid.
Damn straight son
It seems my luck is letting me down I want a change I want to be loved I want someone to love to take all my problems away make me smile have good times with maybe even settle down but this is looking more and more unlikely day by day
I have been thinking for a while now that I want to write my life in to a book just to look back at good times with the lads the . The Bad times just so I can look back at my life just to look back at everything if any one wants to five it a read be my guest you will most likely laugh at my expense and see why im like I am
I feel like I’m stuck in a loop of stuff just repeating I feel like I’m going mad not like hannibal lector mad more joker mad I keep have thoughts back to past and realise I saw this coming all along if I’m honest I just want some sunshine to hit my life I remember the best day of my life 11 . 03 09 I know none of you know what this date means it was a date where i became happy and left the stupid reputation of valentine behind Now I look back and see I never left it behind it has followed me to this day but tell me what is reputation i will tell you what it is it all these Lil stories people hear about you then think it’s true then people who don’t even know you hear about you then when you meet them they are like ow I’ve heard about you your like what the fuck what you heard little stories that go around
im so exicted to be gettin started on my chest piece
that im even fault that my sleve will be finished end ofmarch
so wat to get next
over the past months i have been battling with my insanity over heart break
yeah it can really do it to ya only thing is there is only the rocky path left to take
to become your self again but sometimes we dont become are selves again
we try to be something we are not we try to show this image of someone who
cant be hurt by anything when deep down all we want is to be loved or just have things right again
i realised that the pain you go throught when u break up with some one you loved
you will try to do anything to stop the pain but it will only go away in time
it took me 3 months to become myself after a breakdown kneeling in the rain crying for that loved one i realised she anit comming back i walked home to hear the family having a fall out great just another one of lifes kick in the teeth so i seeked refudge in my room i listened to my ipod it was like it was cursed it kept playing the most lovely dovey songs then i heard it “he who makes a beast out of him self gets rid of the pain of being a man” as i heard that my mood started changing i went to a good friends of mine acompanyed by a prophet to realise
what i had to do so instead of getting sad and depressed it turned to something else something wierd but few weeks later i saw the one girl i loved my feelings where still so so strong for her but she had meet someone i knew for once in my life i did the one thing i am proud of i said im happy for you i hope it works out she said thanks and was like u okay i was like na im not right but i will be she started to worry so i walked her home kissed her on the cheek and said i love u and always will jodie . bye sweetheart we hugged but i walked away went round to a mates where on the way someone said a remark that hit pretty fucking deep i took no notice i walked off as i got to a wall i just saw red and felt anger so i took a full swing at a wall not the smartest idea since i was now walking along abbots dripping blood up the road but the thing that as made me realise im me again i had a deep convo with reis he really helped me get it off my mind since then ive felt like a new person the pain has gone im happy again
EMBRACE YOUR DREAMS ALWAYS PROTECT YOUR HONOR
“It’s difficult to believe in yourself because the idea of self is an artificial construction. You are, in fact, part of the glorious oneness of the universe. Everything beautiful in the world is within you. No-one really feels self-confident deep down because it’s an artificial idea. Really, people aren’t that worried about what you’re doing or what you’re saying, so you can drift around the world relatively anonymously: you must not feel persecuted and examined. Liberate yourself from that idea that people are watching you
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right enough said for all these people who have there opions of me
if im honest im just gonna come right out with it for thoese who misjudge me
to those who truly know me so here it goes
me as a person find that respect goes along way but im to forgiving
i dont see a need to hate someone if they have not done no wrong to me
i try to look on the brighter picture of things try find away round fighthing
if im honest only jodie bought out the best in me i loved and cared for her
but im glad she is happy now but if u want the real me dont listen to rumors
ask me straight up get to know me im genrally an alright guy
yeah i have problems i smoke weed hardly sleep and cut the shit out of my self
i did think suicide but its the bullshit way out
but my friends reis chambers and brad rumble have given me hope by showing me the door in life making me into this new person who understands more and believes in himself again if im honest i owe these guys i love them as brothers and bestfriends they seem to bring out the real me the one who wants to feel the passion and wants to fight laugh be happy and make a go of being me again
how love is suppose to work hmm really
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